It’s been five months since my last blog post. That’s a long time in a world where many bloggers post on a daily basis.
I was worried about not posting for so long but truth be told, I’m okay with the fact that I am not blogging anymore. I even made a commitment with a paint company to use and promote their product (which I absolutely love), yet I just couldn’t seem to get started on any projects. I felt like I was forcing myself to paint furniture. I love painting furniture, I always will but there was this nagging feeling inside me that I couldn’t shake. It’s that feeling of “having” to do something rather than “wanting” to do something.
I remember when I used to bake cupcakes and cakes, it was so much fun. The whole creative process, playing with flavors, experimenting with different icings. All of it was an adventure and I loved it. I loved sharing my baked goodies and surprising people with them whenever I could. As soon as I started getting requests and orders for cakes, I started to feel like a little part of me didn’t want to make them anymore.
Is this making sense to anyone? I’m not happy that I feel this way but it makes me realize that all that time/energy I put into whatever project I am working on, I’m doing it because I want to. Because I love it, because I feel the urge to fix up a dresser and paint it a color that I think it will look best on it. I’m really good at letting my creative juices flow, not so good when someone else tells me what they want me to do.
Right now I am at a standstill. I am going through a creative change and I haven’t figured out where that change is taking me yet. I know I have to go with it because if I don’t, then I will resent whatever it is I force myself to do.
I hope that you continue on this journey with me to see where I end up landing. Right now, I have no idea where that will be but I am looking forward to finding out.
Have you ever been stuck in a creative rut? I’d love to hear your thoughts.